I stood in the kitchen holding it for a long moment.

I knew that handwriting better than my own.

During his final weeks in hospice, I’d watched him struggle to fill out medical forms.

His hands shook so badly that the nurses offered to write for him.

He always refused.

“My hand still works,” he’d say with a little smile. “Mostly.”

Even then, he wanted to do whatever he still could for himself.

I smiled when I recognized the envelope.

For one brief, beautiful moment, I imagined what might be inside.

A goodbye.

A final expression of love.

Perhaps a few words he’d been unable to say when the illness made speaking difficult.

That would have been like Larry.

He was the kind of man who couldn’t accept a cup of coffee without thanking me.

Even after years together, he never treated kindness as something he was automatically owed.

And now, six days after losing him, I was holding something he had written with his own hands.

I ran my thumb over my name.

The house was quiet.

Too quiet.

I had spent nearly a week learning how absence could fill every room.

His chair was empty.

His slippers were still beside the bed.

And every morning, for one confused second, I still expected to hear him call from the kitchen.

I carried the envelope to the table.

Sat down.

And carefully opened it.

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